Dream

Do you wanna know the real reason why I came here tonight? Because I knew this was going to be hard for you. And for the first time in a really long time I wanted to be there for somebody….
But I want you to know that I think you deserve…I think you deserve more than what you’ve settled for. I do. I think you deserve to be taken care of for a change. I believe that.
-Kevin on 27 Dresses

I SOOO want this one day!!!  I want someone to want to take care of me.  I want someone to be there for me, especially through the hardest moments of life.

Aries

So let me start off by saying that this is not something I typically follow or really believe in; however, it's interesting when it fits so well.  It kind of makes me want to hope in it all.

Now, I came across this when I was looking up palm reading.  I was looking up stuff on palm reading as back in 2004, I had someone kind of read my palm without me just giving it to him.  He made a statement that bothered me then, but now is just kind of crazy.  He said that I would be married twice.  Well, I'm going through a divorce and hope to be married again in the next few years... yea, I'm curious.

So here is my horoscope for this year... and yes, this fits me REALLY well!!

		MARCH 21 to     April 19 Sign: Aries Name: Ram Ruler: Mars
General Advice A powerful, passionate momentum is slowly building in your life, and your train is finally coming in. Through the remaining months of the year, your spirit will be awakened, an event that will transform your existence -- the many dimensions of your sparkling personality will suddenly blossom. Brimming in spirit and fiery determination, your rebellious heart will cry to be set free. As exciting and arguous your spiritual journey will be, it will not be the highest mountain you'll have to climb. For the Aries, an enduring love will come calling. Aries Attributes Qualities=Cardinal, Fiery, Masculine Zones=Head The Sun in Aries You are a go-getter. You are head-strong and sometimes even impulsive. Your ambition leads you to new ideas and goals. Your energy and enthusiasm is great, however you can also be quite blunt at times, and are inclined to get straight to the point. You always seem to give off the impression of urgency and restlessness. Your self-assertiveness and self-directed ambition makes being your own boss an idea you should definitely look into. Despite the fact that you may have a short temper, grudges are something that you never hold for long.

Learning

It is day 15 of the new year, and I have not really done anything towards most of my goals this year.  Maybe they weren't real goals; maybe I just didn't make them all that important.  Either way, I don't know why I ever make resolutions every year... they fall through!

I have tried to see the good in every day, and most days I'm pretty good at that.  There are some days that are more of a struggle, like today, but I really do try to see the good.

Today I seem to just be facing reality, and trying to not get sick.  I had plenty of sleep last night, so I'm not really sure what's happening.  However, I do know what's happening in my life, and it's a stress.

As of right now, I'm learning to be single again.  I am learning to be me.  It's not easy as I haven't just been myself in 3 1/2 years.  Right now, I am just in a limbo stage as I'm not married, but I'm not divorced.  I am just waiting on papers to be signed so that a divorce decree and court day can be set and things finalized!  I am so ready to just close this chapter of my life and move forward.

Moving forward is going to happen, and I'm not really sure what that is going to entail.  I know some of the things I want to do, but I just have to figure out if they should happen or not, or how to make them happen.

Work is crazy!  We are still short staffed, and I am getting burned out.  Seriously - I just want to get away somewhere and do NOTHING!  Oh how I keep hoping for good people to apply and actually complete their applications!!

Speaking of work... time for me to go back.  There's my update for now.

Moving Forward

2013 is an exciting year!  It really is.  This year I am moving forward, and I'm going to love life!  I'm going to be happy every day, and I'm just excited!  If it continues like it already has been, I just don't see how it couldn't be a great year!!

Happy Moments

So I wanted to start keeping a journal every day about things that are good from the day; however, I have already missed the first day.  :)  It's typical.  Well, I figured I would just blog about good/happy moments and try to keep it as often as possible.

The first two days of the year have been great so far!

January 1 -- I brought in the day with a group of friends, and it was fabulous!  I love knowing that I have people I can be around, and that support me.  We didn't go to sleep till WAY too late, and of course, I had to leave their house WAY too early for work.  It was fun just being with friends.

January 2 -- Today has been great!  I have a new manager, and I'm excited!!  I think I will get a vacation soon!  :)