Insanity

No, I'm not insane... at least I don't think so.  :)  However, I am considering the workout program called Insanity.  It's time to get my body together and back in shape!  Have any of you tried it?  What are your opinions?

My reason for it is that I'm still young-ish and I need to be happy.  Plus, I function best off routine and instruction.  This could certainly create all of that.

So... give me your opinions and thanks!  :)

break

i so need a vacation!  i don't just need to go somewhere; i need a vacation from life.  my brain never shuts off, and once i think things are getting better, it goes crazy again.  i need and want to get away so bad, but it's not going to happen.  i have no money and no way to get off work.  places i want to go aren't really places brandon wants to go, but honestly, i would be okay taking a vacation alone.  i miss those days.  i remember when i went to utah a few years back by myself, and it was awesome.  i got to spend lots of great time with my friends, but i also got to spend time alone.  i went on a couple dates, and just got to enjoy life.  i wish i would have appreciated it a little more back then!  so many decisions to make, and so very little energy to do it.  :-/

To NOT be young again

I feel like I'm back in high school again.  I have ZITS!  UGH!  They are driving me crazy, and no matter what I do, they won't go away.  Seriously, I haven't had them this bad since high school, and I don't want them anymore!  They just aren't very pretty, and well, they make me feel much younger than me.  I'm to the point that Heavenly Father needs to bless me with a baby soon or I might be going back on birth control.  Yes, I know that's sad, but I work in fashion... I am a little vain/materialistic.  Accept it or not, it's the fact.  So for my sanity and for my desire to have a family, pray that the zits go away or I'm blessed with a baby soon.  :)

Church

I went to church on Sunday, and it was good.  My mother-in-law needed me to conduct the music in Sacrament, and although I thought I was going to be so late... I made it.  :)  My cousin got married the night before, and it was amazing!  Just got home a little late, or early.

But back to church... it was really good to be there.  I should probably go a little more.  No, I don't like having to get up early every day of the week, but it's where I should be.  I even got to hold a cute little baby!  Hopefully soon I will be looking forward to my own cute little baby...  that's another story/thought.

It's still hard going and leaving alone, but I need to get my butt there and back to where I used to be.  December will be here before I know it, and there are big things that I am working towards!  YAY!  :)