break

i so need a vacation!  i don't just need to go somewhere; i need a vacation from life.  my brain never shuts off, and once i think things are getting better, it goes crazy again.  i need and want to get away so bad, but it's not going to happen.  i have no money and no way to get off work.  places i want to go aren't really places brandon wants to go, but honestly, i would be okay taking a vacation alone.  i miss those days.  i remember when i went to utah a few years back by myself, and it was awesome.  i got to spend lots of great time with my friends, but i also got to spend time alone.  i went on a couple dates, and just got to enjoy life.  i wish i would have appreciated it a little more back then!  so many decisions to make, and so very little energy to do it.  :-/